Light up a match in the dark

Seriously I don't know why I have the huge feeling to blog at this late night.
Yes, I know I abandon my blog for a very long time.
I didn't mean to.

Semester 3 is a hyper busy period.
I get stress.
I ruined up all my daily routine. Really sick of it.

Ya sure people out there will said that : This is just a small challenges, if you can't over it then how you gonna step into the real social life?
Bla bla bla~ Just shut up and get lost.
I don't believe that you can stand strong 365 days.

Today, tonight, my mood turn down.

I can't figure out why.

But just now have a warm chat with a friend.
I explain my condition.

" Get emo when I'm at the process to tidy up my messed mind "

Kinda like that.

I can get emo. Easily.
By a song.
By a sudden-blew wind.
By a sentence.

Why?
Because they inspire me.
By song's lyrics, I get inspired and start to link it to my life. And I keep on thinking, thinking and thinking.
Sudden-blew wind will relax me and I will start to think about my recent life.
A inspiring sentence will get me into the 'thinking dimension'.
This is what I always do.

There are questions disturbing me.
They keep on messing my mind.
When I have too many question that I have to ask myself,
I choose to get myself some freedom.

Go out alone.

Breath the air that is freely moving outside the hostel and college.
Enjoy the moment that I can listen to music in the bus, walk alone, shop alone.
Sounds weird? But I think that I can totally relax my mind. 

I can be a "free-walker" .

Air with freedom!

Although is just a place that I had already visited many times until I'm bored!
But, go alone will change your sight of view. 

Yes. Alone, I can stare at the sky as long as I want.
No one will need to wait for me.
And no one I need to care.

But recently I really start to get emo mode.

I'm trying hard to tidy up my mind and find out the reason for it.
Or too many things happen recently and finally now it reached it end
my brain get this information that everything are done,

so she is now processing a conclusion for me?
That's why my brain get tired, and I mentally get tired too
so I emo?

ARGGGHHHHHHH!!!
I don't know!
I feel like so wanna go to the beach.
Feel the breeze, listen to the waves.
comfort my mind, relaxing my soul. 

Ya. A far far way dream except I have my own car.
I can drive to there.
Silently sit on the beach and enjoy the breeze and sound of wave. 

Alone sit on the bench silently. Thinking something myself.
Have some chit-chat with some friends maybe?
hmmmmm... Sounds great.

Time to bed I think.
Go to beach in the Dreamland first maybe? =)