Overload with trash

I don't know why, didn't even know how,
recently I just feel that my life turns out to be kinda sucks and demotivating.
Com'on! I just told myself that:
Ellyssa, you need to take your degree life very serious and don't mess it up! you screwed nearly 10 weeks of your first semester, you need to be serious and focus now!

Okay, then happily I have raya holidays at hometown, relaxing and then!
Why I feel like my KL life start to be miserable!
Even small things, a small tiny little thing, couldn't go smoothly.

Nego, PSM.... Dafuqq! Are you kiddng me?!
Yes I knew that we did not done it well and nice, but how can it be so sucks?

PSM?! Hello, you told me that I did well when my " Search Inside  presentation right?
And then today you told me that I didn't do well actually.
Do you have your medicine already? Do you need a full body check?
You like giving me a sweets and then today you tell me that: nahhh... that sweets I just borrow you. You need to give me back.
I don't really hate you, but an you just don't try to challenge my heart?
Die because of heart attack is not in my list!

Overall, I think I can't perform well this semester.
I can't actually believe that I show such a "good" performance.
It is totally under my expectation. Believe that I can perform better.

Well, this semester is a sucks appetizer.
I hope whats coming will taste good.
And please, recently I need good lucks to help me to face those stress.
So, I hope that every bad things end tonight.
12am, the end.

Wish me luck! :)