I am always a skinny girl when I am still a kid. Yes, super skinny.
But now I am a chubby girl. Yup, I won't deny it. x)
(guys, I am avoiding the 'fat' word here)
I guess no one expected that I will turn meaty, like what I am now when I am still that skinny girl.
I thought I will be forever a skinny girl that time.
When I am still primary and secondary teen, I have a very... SPECIAL a-k-a OUTSTANDING look.
Chubby, bird nest hair, 'dai ga jie' pattern, and I wear whatever is on the top on my wardrobe.
So basically those Tee and shorts I wear them again and again.
Wear, wash, wear, wash, wear again and wash again,
It's become my icon.
Not to mention my hair! x)
It's can fit one bird family to stay inside. Warm and safe.
My hair is curly, short and it's middle separated.
Until secondary Form 3, I still didn't need a comb to set my hair.
Let it dry itself, and form a comb with my finger, comb it upwards.
Exactly the same like how guys set their hair.
I can't found any old photo of me because I'm still in KL.
Here is an old photo of mine, posted by my teacher in secondary school.
Please... have some, preparation...
x) THIS IS ME
If not mistaken, this is when I was form 3.
OMGAWDDDD
Here a meme create by my friend, credit to that bitch. haha
Well the old me, I never thought that I will have long hair, like now.
I thought I will have that bird nest hair forever. NO LIE.
When in primary, I was very proud with my 'chio' hairstyle.
I was very proud that I didn't have to use comb and carry it 24/7 like other girls did.
I thought that, when I grow older, I won't apply any cosmetics on my face.
When every secondary girls gather together, topics is all around those.
But now, although I am not very expert about it, I started to make up.
I only know how to do light make up. I don't know how to do extra than that. LOL
Ya make up boost my self confidence.
I feel awesome after I see myself in the mirror and look better. =D
x)
And ya!
The radio station's program that I participated (mention in the previous post!),
it's actually kinda awkward when I sent my video and then suddenly I won, suddenly I get to interview by the DJ.
I never thought that I will have the guts. I thought I won't do such silly thing, ever.
I thought, I never will.
During my diploma, I participated in a singing competition.
I thought in my diploma, I will just be a invisible student, college girl.
Never show myself in any event organized in college.
Then, one day I pass by foyer and saw this competition, I asked myself: WHY NOT?
I don't want my college life to be plain. It just take couple of weeks to do this, right?
And then I fill in the form, and boom!
I get a chance to record in a studio room. Cool.
And I get 2nd runner up. Even my dad show up at the finale! =D
There's many other tiny things I experienced.
It may sounds super ordinary for guys out there that experienced things way more interesting than mine.
But that's not the point. xP
So what I want to say,
I am 21 this year, now.
Many transformation and experience happen without you aware about it, or it happen hyper sudden and you can't even stop and realize it is actually changing you or highlighting your life.
Or you felt it is bothering you, annoy you, and you wonder why don't it end faster.
Actually, it happen fast enough.
EG: you broke your leg and you stay in the hospital for one month.
A simple math, compare 1 month / 21years x 12months
It's super short.
Hey, at least you have the experience of broken legs and I don't. x)
CONCLUSION!
I realize that, what you thought at first, for things in the future, didn't mean that it will happen that way.
Life is all about experiencing and transforming.
You might think that, you are failing now, you will fail in the future too.
Or,
You are the top student now in college, and you think that you will do well in the future.
But can you confirm?
I always try to avoid saying thing such as: I CONFIRM! I WON'T DO IT IN THE FUTURE./ I CONFIRM I WILL BLA BLA BLA...
Because I know there are too much uncertainty. I might change my mind in the future.
What I can say is: I didn't like it for now. / I can't do it, for now. etc
PEEPS!
Don't give up now. Don't give up future.
Although sometimes you get frustrated!
Promise yourself you will do your best and that's enough.
Grab any chances to increase your self-value.
Grab any chances to prove yourself valued.
Things turns better from time to time. I PROMISE. =)
At the moment you say: I THOUGHT I CAN'T MAKE IT..... BUT WOW!
Miracles happened! xD
xoxo
